The last day I saw our son, Jared, in person was September 6th 2019, Friday of Labor Day weekend. He came home with some of his college friends for a weekend of hiking and fun and getting some things from home he needed for his sophomore year. After hanging at our house for a bit, […]
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Oh, Mother’s Day. The holiday that stirs up so much trouble for so many. I’ve got multiple posts on my blog related to Mother’s Day (see the search bar) that I wrote long before Jared died because I had so many friends suffering through every second week of May. For me, since my first Mother’s […]
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October is here, the leaves are beautiful, and there’s a big aching pit in my stomach. On October 28th, it’ll be 3 years since Jared died. 3 years? It feels impossible, yet here we are, and I know we are far from alone. In August I went to a retreat with 8 other moms from my […]
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Oh 2022, I think we’re all a bit scared of you….but this morning as I crawl out of bed to a yard blanketed with desperately needed snow (and a trampoline that flew across it in the wind this week), I have been thinking about hope. I love hope. But I know hope is dangerous, too. […]
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Two years ago tomorrow our wild and beautiful Jared left this earth. There truly are no words to describe the feeling of the depth of this loss, and as we brace for tomorrow I have spent today in the grief tsunami that’s stirred by anniversaries. Part of my day has been finally reading a bunch […]
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When Faith Shift entered into the world in 2014 (!) I had a few core things I wanted to communicate—that we weren’t crazy and were weren’t alone in our faith shifts and that the movements I walked through in the book—Fusing, Shifting, Returning, Unraveling, Severing, and Rebuilding—weren’t a formula or a step by step anything. […]
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Next week marks one year without our wild and beautiful and creative and passionate and incredible son here on this earth. At the mom’s grief group that I’ve been going to these past few months, I gleaned some wisdom we’ve been trying to hold on to as October 28th approaches—often, the anticipation of the big dates are […]
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Mother’s Day. I could feel it coming this week but didn’t have a lot of time to let the magnitude kick in too early. I’ve been busy with The Refuge in-a-pandemic and our non-profit, #communityheals, and how to start our #waterheals and #beautyheals seasons in the middle of Coronavirus crazy. While our whole world’s been […]
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Five and a half weeks ago I was supposed to be in the Pacific Northwest for two Practicing events in Portland and Washington. I was so excited because not only would I get to process some of the content in Practicing: Changing Yourself to Change the World with people in real life workshop-style (my favorite […]
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“Our brokenness is always lived and experienced as highly personal, intimate, and unique. I am deeply convinced that each human being suffers in a way no other human being suffers.” ~ Henri Nouwen Today is Holy Saturday. The day between Good Friday and Easter Sunday and the one that gets skipped over the most. It’s […]
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