ah, in this picture we look so neat and tidy. all my little j’s–jared, jamison, josh, jose (who helped create these beautiful babes), julia, and jonas. so squared away. so on top of life. looks can be deceiving. don’t for a minute think that a 10 second snapshot captures reality. just take one step into […]
Read Morethis kind of jesus is too small for me
i know i sometimes sound like i am dissing the evangelical church and its rigid ways. please know i recognize there are so many good, lovely, beautiful sincere people in conservative traditional churches who truly love Jesus and are serving him in amazing ways. at the same time, i am sometimes struck by how pervasive […]
Read Morequirks r fun
okay so maybe i really am in blog-land now, i always used to see these things when i was reading other people’s blogs: people would get tagged by someone else to respond to some specific questions and then tag someone else. i always felt left out (typical me, i hate to not be in on […]
Read Morestrain to hear the kinder voices
every year i make the same new years resolutions. i am really quite pathetic. i always say “okay this year i am going to work out at least 3-4 days a week, stop eating carbs, lose 15 pounds, be more on top of my friend’s birthdays, and clean my house more regularly.” usually within a […]
Read Morewhen is the time?
a few days ago the fam and i went to see the great debaters with denzel washington, the true story of an all-black debate team in the 1930’s that was the first to compete against white colleges. we love those kinds of movies, ones that stir up great conversation and a desire to make a […]
Read More2007 was cool…
in the spirit of wrapping up the year, there would be too many highlights to mention. it was a good year for me. i am still healing from my mega-church crazy exit at the beginning of ’06 but i think i am really truly done with the big grieving. this year, the tears dried […]
Read Morea newborn baby blog is born!
blogging is the weirdest thing. i never even knew it existed 1 1/2 years ago, but reading them has helped me more than i would have ever imagined. out here in cyberspace i have discovered i am not crazy. there are others who have changed, shifted, left behind, let go of old ways of doing […]
Read More12.3.07 – from the refuge blog…the magi: pagans who see God
it’s 4 weeks until christmas. hard to believe. i know it’s a really sucky time of year for a lot of people. the darkness sets in, depression about money, relationships, life stuff, and the reality of how hard it is to pull off this life somehow becomes more apparent. for me, the holidays usually just […]
Read More9.25.07 from the refuge blog…we're in good company
when you think of mother teresa, what words come to mind? for me, i think of “poured out, deeply connected to God, amazingly humble, willing heart, in love with Jesus, filled up. sacrificial love” among many others. i am pretty sure “doubter of God”, “overwhelmed with emptiness”, or “tired of never getting His help the […]
Read More9.3.07 from the refuge blog…fabio jesus
i hate to pick on fabio, but honestly, I do not know what his appeal is. he’s just so….perfect. those abs, the flowing hair, the perfect smile, those penetrating eyes. if you could can the world’s view of “perfect specimen” of course he would be it. (i will admit i do have a weakness for […]
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