i was about to post something else that i have been wanting to get up here, but i just couldn’t skip over where i’m at today & why i currently feel so undone. it will also help you understand why i have so much frustration in my heart toward “the church” & the systems and […]
Read More"who does she think she is?"
heard that one before? we start to step out, to put our toe in the water, to pursue a bit of our dreams, use our voice, our leadership, lean into a passion, and the voice comes rushing in: “just who do you think you are?” sometimes it’s subtle, sometimes it’s blaring, but i think for […]
Read Morekids & faith: what are we creating?
my kids went back to school last week. all five of them, out the door by 7:30 am. ah, a little bit of quiet & freedom back in my day, although i always hate to say goodbye to summer & oh, yeah, i always forget my refuge life is far from quiet. my oldest is a junior this […]
Read Morethe crazy tension between "too much" and "not enough"
this past weekend i was in a conversation with some of my dear friends that i consider kindred spirits because we are all, in some shape or form, “ex-good-christian-women.” for all kinds of reasons, we no longer fit the mold we used to try so hard to conform to. these are courageous beautiful women who don’t just long for greater freedom but […]
Read Morei hate shame
yeah, i know hate’s a strong & negative word. i don’t like my kids to say the word “hate” and i am always giving them alternatives: “don’t like”, “don’t agree with,” “not into” are all fine. but when it comes to shame, honestly, the only word that i can think of that’s appropriate is hate. i hate shame. […]
Read Moresurviving spiritual vertigo
this post is part of a synchroblog (a group of bloggers writing on the same topic at the same time. check out their links at the bottom of this post) put together by my blog-friend-on-the-journey glenn hager. the topic is called the revolutionaries synchroblog and you can read more about it here, but the basic […]
Read Moreme.me.me.me.me.me.itsallabout.me
my friend-i-can-always-count-on-to-make-me-laugh-and-worry-about-me-too phyllis tagged me on this meme. it is always a nice diversion from my constant church ramblings and i’ve been really blue so i thought it might be good to join in the fun and escape real life for a few minutes. it did make me laugh here and there, sort of a reminder how weird my […]
Read Morejenga faith
this has been on my mind for a while and i’ve been meaning to put it into words. it came up yesterday in not one, not two, but three conversations in different ways so i thought i’d write it down while it was fresh this time… many i know are going through huge tranformation & transition […]
Read Morethe tortoise and the hare
remember this aesop’s fable? with five kids i have read my share over the years…the stories are really timeless and profound in more ways than one. a few weeks ago the story of the tortoise and the hare came back onto my scan, and i have been thinking about it a lot. at our house of refuge […]
Read Morethe flogging machine
a friend emailed me yesterday and told me she had been hanging out in the flogging machine. in my earlier post i referred to it, but i realized that my friends from the refuge and some others may know what i am talking about but others might not have any idea what it means. i did […]
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