reality.

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the other night at the refuge a friend slipped me a vodka bottle and said, “here, i really wanted to drink it but i know it’ll just mess things up more.” i was so proud of her and promptly went to the bathroom and dumped it out (i am really good at throwing out all kinds of drugs & alcohol & porn & razor blades & weird-things-people-need-to-get-rid-of-to-stay-safe). i have some really funny stories of things i hope and prayed a policeman would never pull me over …

when christmas is hard: honoring paradox

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well, so much choosing for “help, thanks, wow” for when christmas is hard.  sometimes things just shift and new ideas come.  that’s what i love about blogging; it is current.  this week, i got a completely new thought on how i wanted to wrap this series, mainly because it’s what seems to always help me the most when i’m really in a hard place–honoring paradox.  i’ve written a lot about paradox over the years–how two contradicting things can exist at the same time.  even though i’d …

when christmas is hard: “look toward the light”

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“finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” – phiippians 4:8 i don’t know about you, but i’m in a fog.  friday’s tragedy coupled with so much going on here in real life plus the regular holiday craziness has felt bizarre. instead of trying to power through, i decided to accept the haze but keep trying to move forward one baby step at at a …

when christmas is hard: “help”

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“o God, listen to my cry! hear my prayer! from the ends of the earth, i cry to you for help. when my heart is overwhelmed. lead me to the towering rock of safety, for you are my safe refuge” – psalm 61:1-3, NLT sometimes when i write about how hard life is here at the refuge, i wonder if i’m exaggerating.  then i go through a week like this last one and remember how real it is.  seriously, so many people struggling in different ways, some related to the …

when christmas is hard.

kathyescobar advent & lent, healing, incarnational 15 Comments

i like christmas.  i am not crazy about the commercialism and try to avoid stores at all costs starting from thanksgiving on, but i do love the season.  i love the story of Jesus because of its upside-downness & the wild and wacky ways he entered into the world as God-in-the-flesh.  i love the intentional focus and celebrating each week of advent. at the same time, i deeply respect that it is a time of year where things start to go haywire for a lot of …