three things about one word: church

kathyescobar church stuff, incarnational 19 Comments

i first started going to church on a regular basis when i was in high school. my boyfriend’s family became born-again christians while we were dating and i went with them. i loved it. the inspiration, the music, the challenge. it didn’t change everything for me but it opened me up to a world that i knew little about before. since then, i have been in all kinds of churches–big ones, little ones, weird ones, cool ones. each of my church experiences have shaped and formed …

re-defining “church”

kathyescobar church stuff, faith shifts 35 Comments

it was nice to have a little blog break, and when i get a little space and time i always end up back at some of the same questions-about-life like  “why do i still care so much about ‘church’“?  “why do i pour my heart & soul out every week for anyone to see?” “what in the $$^!&!*! am i doing with my life?”  “God, are you sure?” many of you know that i have a very different definition of “church” than many.  i do not …

our fatal attraction

kathyescobar church stuff, crazy making, identity 23 Comments

my husband jose has a theory about people.  he says that in some weird ways, “we’re always going back to our abusive dads, trying to please them.” he doesn’t mean this in a literal sense (although it’s true for some), but rather that human beings are strangely drawn toward being mistreated.  that we live our lives from a place of shame, not freedom.  that we somehow like to be mistreated.  that like a moth to a flame, we often go back for abuse & control & …

if you want to hear me ramble about church for an hour…

kathyescobar church stuff, the refuge 5 Comments

last month i had a one hour conversation with chris yaw from churchnext, which is dedicated to resources & support to nurture healthy churches in all kinds of different ways. it seemed like some of the video was a little slow at the beginning but then it started to kick in, but you can always just do audio. it was fun, pretty much i just ramble about church for an hour, so it’s definitely not for everyone. my favorite parts are past the mid-point. if you …

cruise ships, sail boats & holey dinghies

kathyescobar church stuff, incarnational, the refuge 57 Comments

one of my friends calls the typical contemporary typical church-system “the big ship.”  they’re strong & powerful & plow through the ocean with confidence. they are dazzling and entertaining.  many of us have been on that ship in some way, shape or form, hanging out on the deck enjoying the ride called “church-as-we-knew-it”. but over time many of us have gone overboard. some of us have bailed out, some of us were thrown over the deck.  once in the water, some of us have been clinging …