it’s a helluva lot of people being influenced

kathyescobar church stuff, crazy making, equality, ex good christian women, rants 36 Comments

when it comes to church, i firmly believe that the “best criticism of the bad is the practice of the better.”  at the same time, i think it’s sometimes worth calling out its inconsistencies when it comes to the so-contrary-to-the-non-oppressive-ways-of-Jesus as a reminder and to gain resolve & clarity on why we feel so passionate about change. yes, i recognize “the church” is a flawed system made up of imperfect human beings. it also has an incredible ability to influence people.  it possesses a wild amount …

meat lovers beware! our taste buds have been contaminated

kathyescobar church stuff, crazy making, fundamentalism, rants 12 Comments

i originally wrote this post for the refuge blog in october 2007.  when i was looking at a few old posts this week i stumbled across it and thought i’d repost it because most everyone here has never read it.  it’s almost 3 years later and even though i am rarely around people who ask for more meat, i hear it now and then when i intersect with people in passing.  they’ll declare, “oh, i really love this pastor because he really gives us meat!” and …

Jesus & “excellence”

kathyescobar church stuff, crazy making, jesus is cool, rants 41 Comments

every so often i start to feel a little bad about some of the things that i write because i know it can be mis-perceived as a continual negativity toward typical church systems.  i doubt myself and think “maybe it’s not as bad as i think?  maybe i’m exaggerating?” but then i end up in a conversation with a new church planter or an up-and-coming-leader and i am yet again reminded that i’m not crazy and yes, there are some buzz words that are worse than …

it’s easy to be against health care reform when you have insurance

kathyescobar incarnational, injustice, rants 97 Comments

note: this is part of the august synchroblog focused on christian’s response to health care reform. i haven’t participated in a while, but i thought i’d join in this month.  links to other posts on the same topics are below. * * * * * i usually stay away from political topics here on the carnival.  once in a while i enter the fray, but on the whole it just isn’t something i focus on here.  trust me, though, when i’m across the table from anyone …

why would i call a woman out of one oppressive relationship and into another?

kathyescobar crazy making, equality, rants, women in ministry 21 Comments

i have been thinking a lot about the plight of the abused woman over the course of these past few months. i know so many women—in all shapes, sizes, religious experiences, socioeconomics, education, you-name-it—who have suffered abuse.  not all of it is sexual or physical, although sadly there’s far too much of that going around.   the thing that seems to rise to the surface over and over and over again, though, is emotional abuse.  the pattern among women is more prevalent than any of us would …

can i at least have a cup of coffee with my slice of humble pie?

kathyescobar church stuff, crazy making, healing, rants, the carnival in my head 43 Comments

if you haven’t noticed by now, i have some pretty strong opinions about church-y stuff that can definitely come across as judgemental and harsh.  harsher than sometimes i want it to.  i do not mean to, it’s not like i set out to let it rip every time i sit down on my computer.  i sometimes purposefully do not read back on old posts sometimes because i know that i will cringe at some of the things i say in there, but really, i am trying …

seeing the swan

kathyescobar church stuff, dreams, healing, identity, jesus is cool, rants, spiritual formation, the carnival in my head, the refuge 35 Comments

thanks my dear friends for understanding, for the love, the emails, the phone calls, the comments. i of course have felt encouraged in more ways than you know.  in case you didn’t notice, i am a verbal processor. something happens inside me when i say things out loud & God moves in in all kinds of random and creative ways to remind me of what i need to be reminded of. i think i was clear, but i want to reiterate so there’s no mistake:  the …

why sometimes i want to throw in the towel

kathyescobar church stuff, crazy making, rants, the carnival in my head, the refuge 45 Comments

i was about to post something else that i have been wanting to get up here, but i just couldn’t skip over where i’m at today & why i currently feel so undone.  it will also help you understand why i have so much frustration in my heart toward “the church” & the systems and philosophies that tend to go along with it.  yeah, i’m in the tank.  i’m tired.  i’m angry.  i’m a bit confused.  i want to throw in the towel but know that …