it stinks down here, but i really love the smell…

kathyescobar church stuff, dreams, healing, the refuge 21 Comments

i like to participate in glenn hager’s monthly synchroblog (check out the other links here) just for fun because it forces me to think about some specific topics and i get to read about what some others are saying, too.  this month was just a few simple questions… how  are you doing? what are you doing? what are you learning? what are you dreaming about?   the questions seemed timely.  the refuge just came upon its 2 year anniversary (hard to believe) & i just came out …

no more lepers

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“if you judge people you have no time to love them” – mother teresa “let he who is without sin cast the first stone” – Jesus one of my favorite passages of scripture is in john 8, where Jesus protects a woman from the justice-seeking crowd by radically turning the tables on them, calling them to look at their own lives before they past judgment on hers.  and he sure doesn’t mince words.   the motto at our wednesday night house of refuge is “no stones thrown here.”  …

“auntie kathy, are you sure it’s not wrong for you to be a pastor?”

kathyescobar church stuff, crazy making, dreams, ex good christian women, fundamentalism, healing, women in ministry 61 Comments

well here’s a sincere email i received last week from my 14 year old niece.  i got permission from her to share it on this blog so don’t feel like i’m violating some private conversation.   i thought it was too important, telling, to just keep between her and i and if it helps challenge us a little, well, it’s worth it.   i know you will all honor and respect her for her question.  she goes to a conservative christian school: hey auntie kathy. i was just wondering what your input …

unbind her

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i spent the past couple of days in downtown denver at a women’s event that some dear women i know put together called woman come forth. i run in weird diverse circles. i have my wild and crazy emerging friends, my conservative evangelical friends, my don’t-go-to-church-and-don’t-plan-to-anymore friends, my recovery friends, my eclecic refuge friends, my i-have-had-bad-experiences-with-christians-but-i-kind-of-like-you friends, and a hodge-podge of other lovely people God has brought across my path.   i am very thankful for the richness it all brings.  but sometimes it’s all kind of comical! this event …

facing crazy, paralyzing fears: a fun story

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i had a really fun adventure yesterday.  i got to fly to san diego for the day with one of my dear friends, the lovely & brave sharla jackson.  it wasn’t just an ordinary trip.  it was actually 10 years–yes, 10 years–in the making.  you see, sharla has been terrified of flying (i have known her for 10 years but it’s been 16 years since her last flight!).  she doesn’t have the “oh, it freaks me out a little bit” fear of flying.  she has the extremely-nauseous-and-anxious-just-thinking-about-it,  …

do it anyway

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i took a week off blogging,  just had nothing to really muster up and so it felt kind of good not to even think about it.   i am not too inspired this week, either, but i did come across a really good song yesterday at my favorite monthly gathering with my dear friends, brave-courageous-in-the-trenches-women,  that i thought i’d share.  anyone who knows me knows i can’t stand country music, like i really, really don’t like it.  i can do a few crossover songs from the dixie chicks, keith …

surviving spiritual vertigo

kathyescobar church stuff, crazy making, healing, spiritual formation, the carnival in my head 14 Comments

this post is part of a synchroblog (a group of bloggers writing on the same topic at the same time. check out their links at the bottom of this post) put together by my blog-friend-on-the-journey glenn hager.   the topic is called the revolutionaries synchroblog and you can read more about it here, but the basic idea is some thoughts & perspectives for those who: have been wounded through serving & separating from ‘church as they  have known it” are feeling alone are former church leaders/staff members …

today is a new day

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today is a new day.  you can start fresh, wipe the slate clean and begin again.  that’s the first statement on this really lovely poster i have at my house that jen lemen created for cool people care.  i bought it for a few friends last fall.   i framed one for me, too, and i look at it every day.  there’s something powerful in the simple words, a gentle reminder that life is meant to be lived.  there is beauty to see, people to love, kindness to be passed …