outsiders re-dux.

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In these last few days before Christmas, I’ve been reflecting on this crazy year. On the political bizarreness we are all in the midst of, the stripping of benefits and protections for children while those on the top line their pockets, the reality of our systems being tilted toward undistributed power, the ongoing division within Christianity that is rocking not just “the church” system but countless hearts and souls as well. I am continually struck with the tension between those in power and the margins. When …

its all one big fat paradox.

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We’re smack in the middle of Advent and I haven’t written anything since Thanksgiving week. That’s because the day after Thanksgiving we found out that my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer. Since then, we were able to move him to Colorado to spend this last season of life with us in our home surrounded by kids and dogs and Escobar chaos. We are so grateful. Really, things are pretty sweet around here. He is getting settled in and has care coming in. The Refuge community …

resurrecting.

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Today is Resurrection Sunday (and it’s also my son’s 21st birthday!). It’s a day where we tell the Easter story and Jesus risen from the tomb and remember that out of the death and darkness, hope and new life emerge. Despite many shifts in faith over the years, I am still thankful for resurrection and that without the Friday and Saturday of Jesus’ story, Sunday means nothing. Without death and suffering, there is no joy. Our past is always part of our future. Our stories are …

holy week 2017: a cold & broken hallelujah

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Today is Holy Saturday, the day between the death of Jesus and tomorrow’s celebration of Resurrection. A day of grief. A day of lament. A day of despair. I know so many grieving right now–loss of parents, jobs, ministries, relationships, health, and a host of other things. Grief is weird, unpredictable, often lonely. I also know a lot of people grieving the loss of church and faith-as-they-knew-it this Easter weekend. This used to be a happy day, but now they dread it. It’s become a disorienting …

holy week 2017: realities of life’s 3 day weekend

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Today is Good Friday and in a little bit I’m heading over to The Refuge for our contemplative Stations of the Cross, Refuge-style. This is an important day that wasn’t a big part of my Christian experience until a chunk of years ago. I was part of churches that, on the whole, focused all their energy on Easter services and doing whatever they possibly could to get more people in the doors that day; they consistently skipped over Good Friday and Holy Saturday completely. I love …

holy week 2017: bombs & feet

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I’ve been blogging through Holy Week (Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday are up so far). I had another post I was going to share earlier today–Maundy Thursday–but I ended up having an extra busy day and by the time I got home, I had heard the news that we dropped our biggest non-nuclear bomb in US history in Afghanistan. I knew I didn’t want to just hit “publish” on what I had written. Most of it is all contained in this old post anyway–receiving. Instead, I just …

holy week 2017: little pockets of freedom

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It’s Wednesday of Holy Week, and I’m back in Denver after a family wedding in Nevada and visiting my dad in Northern California for a few days. My heart is full. I also had the privilege of getting to hang out with a friend who I met through this blog to talk about all-things-faith-shift before I flew out today. I am always completely awed by people’s tenacity and courage and what it takes to exit unhealthy systems and find their way to freedom.  It’s Passover week …

holy week 2017: the great distraction

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We’re on Day 3 of this Holy Week Series, starting with Palm Sunday and yesterday’s reminder that Jesus’ first act after coming into Jerusalem on a donkey was to turn tables over in the temple.  I’m not trying to blog through every scripture or only follow the but rather honor some of the different days of this critical week in the Christian faith, drawing on some old blogs from years past and writing some new. In the gospel of Matthew, after Jesus does his temple sweeping, he …