present, humble, vulnerable.
* this is part of the second november synchroblog is to celebrate the beginning of the season of advent. the theme different bloggers are writing on is: jesus is coming: what are we expecting? come back & check out the links of other bloggers writing on this topic at the bottom of this post (they will be added over the next week) and you can go over to christine sine’s blog this month for daily posts centered on this theme, too.
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“he has filled the hungry with good things” – mary’s song, luke 1:53
until 5 years ago i never celebrated the season of advent and the weeks leading up to christmas. honoring the church calendar was just not something i was taught, but over the past few years i have really come to appreciate the beauty & intention that comes from it. at the same time, i am not crazy over the typical definition of “expectation”, probably because it can be such a loaded word when it comes to some christian things. it can sometimes feel a little bit too demanding for me on one end or setting myself up for disappointment on another. it’s tricky for me to say “this advent season i expect….” a phrase that helps me with this is to substitute the word “expecting” with “being open to”.
so, if i were re-framing this entire phrase, it would be: Jesus is coming: what do i want to be open to?
when i am open, i am present. i am not thinking about the next thing i need to do but rather am present in the moment i’m currently in. i have room to listen, notice, experience.
when i am open, i am humble. i do not have everything all figured out. i am not closed off & hardened. my heart is soft & tender to God and other people.
when i am open, i am vulnerable. i am willing to feel, the good things & the bad, to let in the beauty & the ugly and somehow trust that God is at work in it all.
it is quite clear to me that none of these things are my first reflexes!
when i think of the christmas story & the events leading up to the birth of Jesus, mary’s “openness” comes to mind. she embodied being present, humble, and vulnerable. i feel fairly positive she had to be terrified in every imaginable way. i do not think the cleaned-up stories we read about mary are what it really looked or felt like for her in the moment. she was human and experienced fear & shame & doubt & confusion & trust & hope & joy just like we do. there are many different ways the story could have unfolded, but she chose the path of openness. of staying present, humble, and vulnerable in the midst of great travail.
like his earthly mother, Jesus embodied these three qualities, too–presence, humility, and vulnerability. all three are easy to talk about but tricky to live out. the pull toward busyness & thinking 10 steps ahead, self-centeredness, hardening and protecting our hearts & time, and a host of other distractions is really strong.
so what i am i trying to be open–present, humble, and vulnerable–to this advent season?
i want to be open to be awed by the little & beautiful things that i intersect with over the next few weeks that i might count as ordinary. i want to be open to God’s story being told in my life & the life of my friends. i want to be open to see slivers of light in the darkness. i want to be open to feel the ground underneath my feet instead of moving so fast. i want to be open to laughter and joy in the midst of carrying my friends’ real burdens & pain. i want to be open to experiencing peace & a sense of gentle strength in midst of the craziness of these busy & fast next few weeks. i want to be open to being patient & waiting instead of being impatient & demanding. i want to be open to God’s hope.
i know that this is a season of waiting for Jesus to “come” but it also helps me to remember Jesus is already “here.” working, challenging, healing, illuminating, strengthening, comforting, encouraging, revealing his story to us in our real lives, offering hope.
this advent season, God help me be open–to be present, humble, vulnerable .
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here are some other advent posts i’ve written for the past years & synchroblogs. yep, same song, different tune!
- making room for the unexpected
- God. alive.
- an advent confession
- hope is dangerous
- waiting, hoping, expecting the wrong things
- light: i’ll take a sliver anyday
ps: that guest post i wrote over at rachel held evans’ blog–insecure christians–has a pile of comments that have stirred up all kinds of feelings, both oh-i-so-agree ones & contrary ones. i definitely am going to have to do a part 2 over here to process some of it. it is so funny to me, how by saying that maybe there might be some good in us from the beginning since God made us in his image people get in an uproar, thinking i am dismissing sin & brokenness. it still baffles me that it’s heretical. people, good & bad can exist together, for goodness sake! we are living paradoxes. the problem i see is that many of us are blinded by the bad & completely forget the good and the church typically doesn’t help with that in a practical way. anyway, look forward to hearing some of your thoughts on it next week. happy thanksgiving & first week of advent!
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other advent synchrobloggers // more coming through the 1st week of advent:
- Ron Cole at The Weary Pilgrim – advent: reimagining everything
- Liz Dyer at Grace Rules – expect the unexpected
- Sarah Styles Bessey at Emerging Mummy – in which i’m expecting something from advent
- Miz Melly at Perchance to Dream – parousia
- David Perry at Visual Theology – Advent As A Mirror of Possibility
- Christine Sine at Godspace – Jesus Is Coming What Do We Expect?
- Liz VerHage at Living Theology
- Sally Coleman at Sally’s Journey – Come Spirit of Advent
- Jeremy Myers at Till He Comes – Jesus Is Returning Today
- Glenn Hager – Antithetical Advent
- Carol Kuniholm at Words Half Heard – Advent 1: What I’m Waiting For
- Tammy Carter at Blessing The Beloved – His Gift … the way of escape!
- Ellen Haroutunian – Remember Our Story
- Mihee Kim-Kort - Advent Expectations: Keep Awake